DAMN

THIS IS CRAZY!
Astaghfirullahalazim

I am..

still trying..
still trying to collect the broken pieces..
trying to do my best..
to line the pieces up..

I..
keep trying..
keep trying to pick the fragments up..
the fragments of memories..
to reminisce the shattered past..

but..
the pieces still regenerate..
the fragments keep getting sharp..
and I'm still trying..
still hurting myself..

for something I still have faith in..
without knowing when it's gonna end.

maaf ya emang kacau ini © saya pailit yaya tau. kepikirannya di dalem taxi malem-malem -gabagusbener-, yaya ada aja alasan ke hoka hoka bento =...=

P.S. : MALES BELAJAR EUY cekacekatitiktitik © mudum^TM
P.P.S : Ngepos dari Macky kakak gue, Toshi rusak HP ga ditangan T~T

May peace be upon you

Lagi Jaman

Dreamy Idealist

Dreamy Idealists are very cautious and therefore often appear shy and reserved to others. They share their rich emotional life and their passionate convictions with very few people. But one would be very much mistaken to judge them to be cool and reserved. They have a pronounced inner system of values and clear, honourable principles for which they are willing to sacrifice a great deal. Joan of Arc or Sir Galahad would have been good examples of this personality type. Dreamy Idealists are always at great pains to improve the world. They can be very considerate towards others and do a lot to support them and stand up for them. They are interested in their fellow beings, attentive and generous towards them. Once their enthusiasm for an issue or person is aroused, they can become tireless fighters.

For Dreamy Idealists, practical things are not really so important. They only busy themselves with mundane everyday demands when absolutely necessary -kyakya saya anti PENGGILA NILE-. They tend to live according to the motto “the genius controls the chaos” - which is normally the case so that they often have a very successful academic career. They are less interested in details; they prefer to look at something as a whole. This means that they still have a good overview even when things start to become hectic. However, as a result, it can occasionally happen that Dreamy Idealists overlook something important. As they are very peace-loving, they tend not to openly show their dissatisfaction or annoyance but to bottle it up. Assertiveness is not one of their strong points; they hate conflicts and competition. Dreamy Idealists prefer to motivate others with their amicable and enthusiastic nature. Whoever has them as superior will never have to complain about not being given enough praise.

As at work, Dreamy Idealists are helpful and loyal friends and partners, persons of integrity -AYE!-. Obligations are absolutely sacred to them. The feelings of others are important to them and they love making other people happy. They are satisfied with just a small circle of friends; their need for social contact is not very marked as they also need a lot of time to themselves. Superfluous small talk is not their thing. If one wishes to be friends with them or have a relationship with them, one would have to share their world of thought and be willing to participate in profound discussions. If you manage that you will be rewarded with an exceptionally intensive, rich partnership. Due to their high demands on themselves and others, this personality type tends however to sometimes overload the relationship with romantic and idealistic ideas to such an extent that the partner feels overtaxed or inferior. Dreamy Idealists do not fall in love head over heels but when they do fall in love they want this to be a great, eternal love -cuih-.

Adjectives which describe your type: introverted, theoretical, emotional, spontaneous, idealistic, dreamy, effusive, pleasant, reserved, friendly, passionate, loyal, (ah udah ijoin semua sisanya) perfectionist, helpful, creative, composed, curious, obstinate, with integrity, willing to make sacrifices, romantic, cautious, shy, peace-loving, vulnerable, sensitive, communicative, imaginative

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It's kinda freak it's a lot like me, too much like me actually -sok inglish-.. warna lambangnya IJO lagi weww cekaceka. yang di ijo in berarti gue lebay sama statement itu (gangerti kan bagus) maaf ya males pake yang indo, sekalian belajar B Ing niych meen.

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yaa yaa lagi pengen nonton..

Cloudy with a chance of MEAT BALLS

sama..

Whiteout

yaya itu ajedah ooh sebelom ke Rajapolah nonton ini pada nyok kawandh *ngomong ame sapelu?* eh gajadi deh gada duit.. T-T

Assalamualaikum Wr Wb

P.S. : The My Love section from the Dreamy Idealist personality.. hmm, don't know what to say -sok-.

“Per aspera ad astra.”

Ngiri

Ikh knapz ciyh shi A chanteeque ngetz guggh keak guwh..
karena gue ganteng -AHING pertjaja diri-

Yaa yaa itu hanya perumpamaan sebuah keirian dalam hidup, kalo mo ke irian naek pesawat -upphz ngetz(apa banget, ditranslate sgala =..=)-
Hmhm iya niych gue lagi ngiri sama beberapa hal ohoho, bukaan, bukan kepinteran orang atau seperti contoh tadi, saya tak sedangkal itu qoq.

Pertama :

Lagu Bjork yang berjudul Hyper-ballad, yaa yaa saya demen deych sama temen kita satu ini -sokenallu- suaranya uniqueque gitu trus liriknya dalemdalem cing. nah yang Hyper-ballad itu goes like this :

We live on a mountain
Right at the top
There's a beautiful view
From the top of the mountain
Every morning I walk towards the edge
And throw little things off
Like:
Car-parts, bottles and cutlery
Or whatever I find lying around

It's become a habit
A way
To start the day

I go through all this
Before you wake up
So I can feel happier
To be safe up here with you

It's real early morning
No-one is awake
I'm back at my cliff
Still throwing things off
I listen to the sounds they make
On their way down
I follow them with my eyes 'till they crash
Imagine what my body would sound like
Slamming against those rocks

When it lands
Will my eyes
Be closed or open?

I go through all this
Before you wake up
So I can feel happier

To be safe up here with you

yaa yaa saya sudah menyukai lagu ini sedari bocah sd yang mendengar radio mobilnya, tapi gatau judulnya dan menyanyikannya setelah sampai kamar dengan nyanyanyunyu ngarang bebas liriknya. dan terkebetulan saiia menemookhund tepatnya mendengar lagu itu di recycle sama mocca sepulang sekolah kamis kemarin, trus ngesearch digugel akhirnya bertemu nian setelah sekian lama walaupun Nian berada di padang (sodara =..=). yaa yaa lalu saya mendonlod lagunya dan trersentak dengan liriknya yang penuh likaliku lakilaki -ngek- untuk memvisualisasikan isi lagunya dan mencari meaningnya sendiri.

setelah sok ngarang arti lagu orang gue search di songmeaning.com, disini niych ternyata banyak yang berasumsi beda, ada juga yang sama, tapi ada komen bilang kalo official dari Bjorknya sendiri meaningnya tuh kayak yang gue asumsi getho gella gugh ciyh ghawol ngetz deych w.

menurut w (ketuleran rasti ini aduh so contagious meen) jadi dia tinggal di tempat yang indah yang susah diraih bersama kekasihnya -ahay-, setiap pagi ia selalu melihat ke bawah dimana dia melempar barang, ceritanya analogi gitu cuma susah jelasinnya analogi apagitu, jadi dia ngeliat barang-barang itu jatoh perlahan-lahan (jatoh dari tebing perlahan-lahan -__-) dan itu membuat ia lebih bersyukur sama kekasihnya. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah Bjork youre ei jinies (you're a genius), bagi yang guggh ngertoz ama bahasa gue (riset membuktikan 99% orang ga ngerti) sila liet link tadi aja.

Kedua :

Sherina udah gede ya ckck dulu tuh ya waktu bapak seumuran kamu -sok- opomeneh iki. iya ngiri deh silahken liat daripada link ini aaaaaaaaaaaaaah iriiiiiiiiii kampretitotatetottotototototo merek wc terkenal. yaa yaa trus lagu dia yang baru ito lho aaaaaakh bikin gila, ga baru juga sih gue aja baru tau kemaren, lagu yang Cinta Pertama dan Terakhir itu loch romantiqueque ngetz (madam-mode_on). hish yaa yaa.

Ketiga :

SAYA IRI SAMA ORANG YANG PUNYA INI :

Aduh udah tuh gambar hasil nyipet orang gaenak diliet pulak

iya itu aduh pretpret -iniknapacoba-

Keempat :

The Baldwin Brothers

Ya saya iri dengan orang yang memiliki abang, hmmhmm.

The Causes :

Penyebab dua poin pertama, you know lah, they have good love stories a good way to tell it and good way to make people feel good about it, si Bjork emang jenius bikin lagunya, apalagi gue abis naek gunung ngebayanginnya beeeeuh. Sherina dan Dika sangat mengirikan yaa yaa Sherina bisa merasa bebas melakukan apa saja (dengan batasan juga tentunya) sama Dika dan dia tau apa saja yang harus dilakukan, karena memang cinta itu.. gila. sayangnyaa, gue dikasih kesempatan ngerasa itu ya tapi gabisa, dimana pacar untuk berbagi pengalaman, dilindungi, untuk saling mendukung, semua hakekat orang yang dicintai, gue ga dapet semua itu, even the simplest thing, dan baru saja malah mendapati dirinya melupakan tanggal ultah saya, emang takdir dari Allah sih yaudalah hmm fuaaaahh hhhhhh.

Trus itu masalah SIM adooh sopir gue yang irritating itu resign, iya resign -treak dong- AAAH, iya itu bahasanya kebagusan, dia ngundurin diri untuk kerja lagi katanya kangen ngangkot -__-, gue sih insyALlah bisa nyetir sendiri tapi karena ke idealisan bokap yang terpengaruh temennya gaboleh nembak sim syit blung padahal pendapat nyokap berbanding terbaik sama itu , diijinin maksudnya. jadinya kemungkinan gue bakal ngekos setelah sopir gue free-duty mule 1 November, iya ngekos -tereak lagi dong- AAAAAAAAH males meeen anak gunung macam saya tak cocok ngekos (cari korelasinya sendiri =.=) maleeeeees aduh anak yang suka minta bikiniin mie kalo laper tiap 1jam sekali ini -lebejuga- apakabarnya kalo ngekos? aaaaargh nangis ah uhuhuhu ophi a bubuhuhuhu -ngek- ya ya ya.

Ketiga, saya iri sama orang yang punya abang, punya temen dirumah, punya seseorang yang bisa ngajarin hal yang paling ngga lebih berguna daripada ngajarin orang make hedset karena cape denger komentarny ato ngajarin nangkep piring ato buku terbang, dan apalagi benda-benda tersebut terbang karena alasan konyol yang bahkan saya pun tak sepatutnya disalahain karena tuh orang GA PUNYA LOGIKA kali heran gue *sabar dhel sabar* iye iye ohohoy. ga di rumah ga di sekolah dapet tekanan, horeee. dan orang yang saya harap untuk menghibur saya (kembali ke point cause pertama) blablabla. fuaaaaahhh hhhhh, ya saya hanya bisa menghela nafas.

Yaa yaa saya tau saya seperti tidak bersyukur, emang bukan seperti tapi emang ga bersyukur, maafkanlah hamba ya Allah, but it's just too hard too bear. I'm feeling like I'm in the middle of the gravity core.

eh iya satu lagi deh yang diiriin, sekolah luar negri, liburnya lama hixhix ga kaya ini, ini mo midtes lagi *ting* mo midtes, OIYA MAU MIDTES SENEN DAN GUE BLOM PUNYA BUKU DAN MALES BELAJAR, yaudah sih biasa aja hmm, yakin deh tuh orang gila nile lagi belajar yaa yaa.

yaudahlah yaa betewewww postingan madam lumayan membuat saya tersenyum loch tararengkyu iiubhz madamuzz muheheheh.

okay then that's all my useless-absurd-idiotic-grumbles, may god plans better future for me (anak males giniiii?!) and be grateful to yourself pals, cause you might have something better, by looking at my 'nasiph' maybe you'll realize it in a blink of eye.

eh itu baru nyadar gambar SIMnya datanya ngaco-ngaco =..=

Assalamualaikum Wr Wb.


"But gravity always wins, and it wears him out." -Radiohead